Chalerm came back Tuesday afternoon after only one night in Thonburi. He had not said he would return and his explanation was vague.
He says he has “holiday” this week but he was wearing his school uniform Wednesday.
Chalerm told me to close my eyes and put something soft in my hands.
- Open eye! said Chalerm.
It was a stuffed animal. It was a yellow and red teddy bear. Chalerm put it in bed next to my pillow.
- Him can be your friend when I away, said Chalerm.
The Prince of Khon Kaen is here too. Chalerm put Prince to work cleaning the aquarium and changing the water. Chalerm likes to boss people around and Prince is like an eager puppy, always happy to help.
I have told Chalerm that I consider keeping Prince and send Chalerm to Khon Kaen. Chalerm thinks this is a joke.
Chalerm’s unannounced return and the teddy bear gift are signs of something. Thai boys can sense when they are in trouble. I swear they can read minds. When I think I had enough of them they suddenly show up and behave well for as long as it takes to be forgiven - and not a minute longer.
The cycle repeats itself.
Enough of this game. I am still thinking I should do something, if only go to Pattaya for a few days. Maybe I should bring a Thai boy. Prince, for example. Ha!
The high season starts next month. Fresh boys from the villages are arriving in Pattaya by the busload, eager to cash in. This is a good time to see them, before they get jaded and ruined by people like me.
Tags: gay Thailand, Thai boys
xxx
October 4th, 2007 at 12:23 pm
Nah SF don’t play games… if you need to talk to your bf do so:) playing ring around the rosy will only prolong the issue:)
the animal jester is cute
AND!! I Saw a Richie Stringini twin at SuperCuts here near Los Angeles today!! I mean so dead on it almost as him! Of course this one wasn’t as he was gay..
October 4th, 2007 at 4:16 pm
sigh………i wish you would reread your own writing about Chalerm over the last few months. It’s very clear things are not good and getting no better. I agree with the last poster. A good serious talk is long overdue. You seem to be enabling childish behavior and too accepting of it. I would hope you two can work things out but as soon as Chalerm really realizes you have other lovers/sexual partners for real your relationship is going to blow sky high and perhaps be irrepairable. I would encourage you to do what’s necessary to save it now before it gets to that point. best of luck in doing so, i would love to see you more happy and more contented than you are now.
October 4th, 2007 at 5:01 pm
Hmmm…Not sure that I agree with Christian. I think your gaming skills seem equal to Chalerm’s and you hold a good hand of cards. He has been terribly lucky since he met you that day in the park…wonder if he knows just HOW lucky? ;P
October 4th, 2007 at 5:17 pm
But it is very cute.
October 4th, 2007 at 8:25 pm
KOBoy exactly!! thats why I think a chat is overdue.. Charlem maybe playing games but if SF plays along it’s not helping and only prolonging.. a serious talk is due and if that doesn’t stop the game.. well a bit of distance maybe good..
October 4th, 2007 at 9:00 pm
I KNEW it! Just as I said the other day…now if the teddy bear doesn’t work then Chalerm will come up with something else….
Chalerm is happy and he doesn’t understand that his happiness doesn’t translate to you being happy. If he is happy then you should be happy!
Isn’t that the way it should work when you are a couple?
Oh, you want empathy too?! You want Chalerm to understand your feelings and where you are coming from?
Ever wonder, after all these years, can someone from one country ever really understand and or know someone from another country especially in an intimate relationship?
Ever wonder why Chalerm is content and you are not? Chalerm knows about your blog, your photo sessions and your visa runs…..
I am sure he says, “mei phen rai” and goes on about his life…..go to Pattaya and have a BLAST! Have the boys lined up at your hotel door….and then go home and settle down with Chalerm….
Remember, mei phen rai (oh and take lots of pictures!)
October 4th, 2007 at 11:53 pm
Does Chalerm know you write a blog and if so does he ever read it? You should just give hime a link and save you all the tedious explanatory conversations. I sometimes write my thai BF letters instead of talking to him, the letters seem to be taken more seriously for some reason. Anyway I think you are quite lucky, Chalerm does not give you any more trouble than any thai bf would.
October 4th, 2007 at 11:55 pm
The thoughts of Prof. WooHoo.
I think it’s pretty clear that Chalerm (probably supported by P) feels a bit guilty about leaving you on your own. Maybe he feels a bit insecure for the same reason. Hence the cuddly toy.
But when he’s home it seems he makes no attempt at being a boyfriend in the way one would expect. (At least this is the way it seems from the stories).
It sounds like you have been promoted from lover to family. The provider, the father figure.
That might be quite an honour in Thai society, and maybe you get a buzz from looking after him and helping him become an adult. But we know you want more from this relationship.
Maybe Chalerm expects you to do what i have read some Thai ‘fathers’ do and sneak out to a local brothel now and again before returning to the nest and continuing to be the father-provider. That sounds quite exciting in a short-term kind of way, but I’m not sure that’s what you want either.
My own opinion is that you need to decide what you DO want, whatever that is, then sit Chalerm down and explain it to him. Maybe he will understand, maybe he won’t. Maybe he will open up to you, maybe he won’t.
But if you are truly not happy with the current situation you need to sit him down and tell him how it needs to change or you will both become more unhappy until one of you walks. Better to try and fix it before you throw it in the bin. IMHO.
Maybe you’re not sure exactly what you want - maybe you would like the security of a wifey at home but with some freedom to sample the sweeties in the sweet shop now and again?
Or maybe you would prefer something else.
Maybe it will take a little time to work out exactly what YOU want, but when you do, please tell him and give him a chance to change before you throw him and Prince in the Klong.
Prof WooHoo.
(Not really a Prof, but it felt nice writing it
October 5th, 2007 at 8:27 am
Prof WooHoo.
(Not really a Prof, but it felt nice writing it)
If not a Prof then at least a sage….
October 6th, 2007 at 7:52 am
maybe that r should be an o?
October 6th, 2007 at 8:55 am
The Prof makes good sense. I’m sure you don’t want anybody to be hurt, and you will handle matters well.
October 7th, 2007 at 4:17 pm
At the very least, Sf, you have taken a boy from the countyside, with no-one much to care for him, and provided him with love and the resources to move into the middle class in a developing country. What a BEAUTIFUL thing to do for another human being!! While quid-pro-quo is to be expected, what shines through all your writing about Chalerm is your love and willingness to go the extra mile because of it. He IS a very lucky boy!