My 3rd day home alone. I am annoyed. I feel I get the worst of two worlds. I get the obligations of being in a relationship but I don’t get the benefits.
Chalerm says he wants to stay with me from Thursday evening till Sunday evening. I assume his friends will be here too, and that they will use The Mansion as a convenient base for Silom nightlife. This is what they did last weekend.
I am using reverse psychology. I have told Chalerm he should stay longer in Thonburi. Don’t come back Thursday. Come back Sunday instead.
He doesn’t want to wait until Sunday. He wants to be here Friday and Saturday and sleep long Sunday morning.
Chalerm wants to know why I think he should stay longer in Thonburi. I have avoided the question but it is for the same reasons he wants to be here weekends. It is so I can go out and maybe make new friends and maybe bring someone home.
If Chalerm is going to live in Thonburi most of the week I want some freedom.
Maybe this will result in us breaking up. It could be about time. We haven’t broken up for several months now.
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July 11th, 2007 at 10:10 pm
Hi Silom,
i feel with you. Good luck in this hard time.
Jan
July 11th, 2007 at 11:44 pm
Oh, the burden of our heritage…guilt trips!
Your situation reminds of a quote I heard once in Bangladesh, “Can’t eat it for the bones. Can’t leave it for the taste.”
July 12th, 2007 at 12:51 am
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July 12th, 2007 at 1:03 am
I keep my BF apprased of all your situations with Chalerm. Most times he is on Chalerm’s side but on this situation he says, ” not right, finish him, he bad boy”.
July 12th, 2007 at 2:53 am
We haven’t broken up for several months now.
Good to see you haven’t lost your sense of humour yet.
Thinking of breaking up seems a bit early after just three days of a new arrangement anyway. So there is still hope! (And with hope I mean hope for Chalerm, as he has to lose much more, I guess.)
July 12th, 2007 at 5:51 am
SF, have you discussed with Chalerm the possibility that you might be making new friends and even might be bringing someone home?
July 12th, 2007 at 2:48 pm
Sounds like he thinks only in terms of what is most convenient for him…
July 13th, 2007 at 3:05 am
Wake Up! Chalerm. What are you thinking!!! I guess you don’t miss the water until the well runs dry.
July 13th, 2007 at 4:32 am
My instinct says sit him down and explain to him that you aren’t happy and why, and what you would really like your relationship to be like.
But then, I guess you have already done that.
Worth one last try?
July 13th, 2007 at 10:20 am
gmac: Yes. Chalerm says I can do anything if it makes me happy. But in reality he would get hurt, jealous and insecure.
July 13th, 2007 at 7:22 pm
“The problem is all inside your head”, she said to me
The answer is easy if you take it logically
I’d like to help you in your struggle to be free
There must be fifty ways to leave your lover
She said it’s really not my habit to intrude
Furthermore, I hope my meaning won’t be lost or misconstrued
But I’ll repeat myself at the risk of being crude
There must be fifty ways to leave your lover
Fifty ways to leave your lover
You just slip out the back, Jack
Make a new plan, Stan
You don’t need to be coy, Roy
Just get yourself free
Hop on the bus, Gus
You don’t need to discuss much
Just drop off the key, Lee
And get yourself free
Ooo slip out the back, Jack
Make a new plan, Stan
You don’t need to be coy, Roy
Just listen to me
Hop on the bus, Gus
You don’t need to discuss much
Just drop off the key, Lee
And get yourself free
She said it grieves me so to see you in such pain
I wish there was something I could do to make you smile again
I said I appreciate that and would you please explain
About the fifty ways
She said why don’t we both just sleep on it tonight
And I believe in the morning you’ll begin to see the light
And then she kissed me and I realized she probably was right
There must be fifty ways to leave your lover
Fifty ways to leave your lover
You just slip out the back, Jack
Make a new plan, Stan
You don’t need to be coy, Roy
Just get yourself free
Hop on the bus, Gus
You don’t need to discuss much
Just drop off the key, Lee
And get yourself free
Slip out the back, Jack
Make a new plan, Stan
You don’t need to be coy, Roy
Just listen to me
Hop on the bus, Gus
You don’t need to discuss much
Just drop off the key, Lee
And get yourself free
July 13th, 2007 at 7:58 pm
That song is overrated. It promises fifthy ways to leave your lover but I can only see five.
July 13th, 2007 at 8:14 pm
Yep. Only a 10% song. May be Chalerm feels more free because he don’t need you to pay the Granny pension anymore.
July 14th, 2007 at 11:28 am
how is sex with him? still want it? or looking for it elsewhere even when he is there?